With Christmas upon us, this year is coming to a close. That means the busy season is going to start for me. My days of going out are over come January 8, and they will be replaced with routine. The routine of work, school, homework, school, work, work, homework... etc. For some reason I am looking forward to this routine though. My life is so... weird right now. I think I will find much more of a purpose to my life come January. I never thought I would say this, but, I can't wait to start school. And, I can not wait for my overly busy routine to begin.

So, I am super excited... Orientation went amazing thanks to a really cute boy that kept me company all day. I got into 4 out of the 5 classes I wanted which is really good considering people have been registering for classes since January. If my math is right, I should be getting paid about 2 grand to go to school every semester! How amazing is that... yay for my trip to Vegas in April :)

Back to the cute boy I met, we talked all day and had a lot in common. Unfortunately, being so shy, neither of us asked for eachother's number. However, he is in my second class, so look for an update on Mr. Tyler on January 8 :)

So, I am working 39 hours this week at American Eagle, and I am scheduled 40 hours next week (the only day I have off is Thanksgiving!). Welcome to holidays and retail. We are busy as hell and stuck working all the damn time. I'm not feeling much in the holiday spirit...probably bc all I am doing is working.

I am excited that my grandparents will be here Thursday for two weeks. Everything seems to go good when they are here. (even though I have to sleep on the couch)

I am also anxious for my UCF orientation/class registration on Friday. I have so much riding on Friday. I am waiting to decide on my job until I find out my school schedule, so I feel like everything is on hold right now. It's left me very anxious! Hopefully I won't have to go to school everyday, so I can work at HR Block again...or, serving tables. Retail just does not pay enough. I am sure everything will work out. I really need to go see my mom, brothers, and sisters in December... but, I would have to quit AE. I don't know what the hell I am going to do. Again, waiting on Friday.

I guess I will solve a lot of issues Friday (or just cause a lot more). So, I guess I will write again Friday!

Just when you think you are finally pulling ahead (in anything: money, relationships, school, career), you fall farther behind.

So, I have been working since 9:00am this morning. I just got finished. It's 9:00pm. Let me just tell you how dumb people are. I would leave the grounds for 5 minutes, and I had people calling my cell.. where do we put this tent? Where is so and so going to go? OMG!!! Today was hell. And it was long. And it was tiring. But, I really did enjoy it. I am learning a lot, and that is the reason why I took the job anyway. Learning and Experience!
Tommorrow, I work from 8:00am until prob 8 or 9pm. FUN! Setting up all of the exhibitors/vendors/bbq! It is going to be a lot more FUN? than today.
And then, what I have been working so hard for, the end result... my event, Saturday and Sunday. Hopefully everything works out tom to ensure a great event this weekend. Pete said today to one of the guys, (I had just yawned) "Yeah, she would do very well in charge of this whole thing!" Umm.. really! Where's my degree. Thanks. The other coordinator that is working on this got into a car accident (she isn't hurt) but she wasn't there at all today, so, I got to do it all. And, that would explain why I worked 12 hours. Thank

So, I have been super stressed lately with my event that I have been planning only 7 days away. I have two jobs, lots of homework, and no time. And, lately I have been depressed about my non-existent love/interest life. Today, I was really tired...worked eight hours after working 13 yesterday, then went to watch the first half of Little Shop. I was so exhausted, I left. And, on the way home I just felt like crying. Me and Jordan had a little talk about some things that are going on in his life, and I was just so freaking emotional. AND THEN, I get home to nothing else but mail. In that mail was a letter from a law firm saying I owe $330 something dollars to Polk County for a ticket I got in November 2005. Keep in mind, I paid the Ticket Clinic (which takes your ticket to court for you so you won't get points on your license) $175.00 in Dec 05 to take care of my ticket. Well, that normally takes 2 or 3 months to get a court date and a ruling... and, by that time I totally forgot about my ticket. Usually they just send you a letter in the mail saying we took your ticket to court on such and such date and no points were awarded to your license.. please pay the reduced ticket rate of so and so. Well, I never got a letter in the mail... so, apparently I never paid an amount that I had to pay.
In the letter I just got, it said your license may be suspended and it is your duty to get it reinstated...blah blah blah. WTF My days keep getting better and better. So, now I prob have to fight with the Ticket Clinic on the phone about why I was never notified.. prob won't get my money back.. prob have to pay another $330.00 plus pay to get my licensce back.. just when I thought I would finally have extra money saved up when I get my last big check from my event. Yeah right. Now I am probably going to have to borrow money from my uncle again, and owe him again.
I don't know how the hell people live in this God forsaken world. I tell you one thing, I am sooo sick of it. People are fucking ridiculous, and I hate that I have to see human beings every God damn day. Business' are only out for themselves and money and don't give a shit about people. And, most people, are only out for themselves and do not care who or what they have to step on to make their lives better. All I have to say is, people are lucky I don't know where the hell the key to the gun cabinet is, because, I would probably have to open it.
And, to think that the world only keeps getting worse, makes me want to vomit.. Whatever, I am so sick of having things to worry about. I'm sick of being busy. I'm sick of not sleeping. I'm sick of not being able to go out when I want. I'm sick of fake people. I'm sick of money... I HATE money! Unless you have tons of it... money does nothing but cause problems. I'm sick of people that call themselves my friends, yet I am the one always calling them to hang out. HMMM When was the last time someone invited Seaira somewhere? I will have to say that Monica is probably the one person that calls me to do something/anything. But, yet supposedly I have tons of friends that like to hug me when I see them out and about. WELL, I am fucking sick of that too. If you don't like me, just don't fucking be fake and be nice to my face. I would rather have you be mean to me, than fake. I don't know how many of my "friends" that have said in the last week.. "Oh, I didn't know you were planning an event.. what is it" Really , I've been doing it for over 2 months now. WHATEVER That just go to show me that no one pays attention, and I am sick of it. Everyone just wants to see you in the club, smile a fake smile, give you fake hug, and pretend to have a friendly conversation with you. I'm over FAKE smiles, hugs, and friends.
Obviously, I have a lot of pent up feelings that needed to come out.. and, I could probably go on all night. But, I think I am just going to cry myself to sleep now. I don't know why this went from stressed to fake people... but, you know whatever. All of the shit I mentioned is all playing a part in my stress factor and why I have a pounding headache right now and my back is in knots.
So, if you are a real friend.. thank you for reading this..AND, I will be fine. If you are fake and ridiculous, and you have never called me, hung out with me outside of the club, and don't know anything about me other than I am Jordan's friend... don't bother being nice to me, because, I am done being nice to you!